|Let me start out by apologizing for not giving a formal introduction of myself the 1st time I posted last Wednesday. I was just so excited to get this beautiful process started that I dove right into the proverbial dessert before the main course. The short version: My name is iNDIGO. Professionally, I am currently a Gospel Singer, a Songwriter, Vocal Producer, Vocal Coach, and Owner of a Christian business. I dedicated my life to Christ in April 2006, leaving behind a very secular life. I hope someday to be able to share my testimony in it’s entirety, but for now, let’s just say it is extensive. Those of us who are born again all have a story. As Christians, we don’t all have the same history, struggles, and/or experiences, but each of us who has been brought out of darkness into the light have an obligation to tell the world, “IT WAS BECAUSE OF JESUS. LET ME SHARE HIM WITH YOU.”
I was so lost for so long y’all. But the sad part was that, when I was at the peak…the pinnacle of my anything goes, sinful ways, I truly believed that I was a Christian. I was famous for quoting Romans 3:23, as a defense to anyone attempting to throw religion in my face. “Everybody sins homie and God knows my heart, so beat it!”. I didn’t understand the truth of God’s word.
I thought that being a “good person” was enough to qualify me…enough to justify me. I was sure that was my golden ticket. I had no true relationship with God. I only reached out to Him regarding things of interest to me or when there was some form of crisis. Then I would have the nerve to mock Him when the prayer wasn’t answered. Again, I didn’t understand the truth of God’s word.
My GodBrother who was in the secular music industry before finding the Lord in 2005, invited me to His church (About My Father’s Business Outreach Ministries in Washington, DC) back in March 2006. I went reluctantly and started to feel God tugging at me that day but I didn’t act on it b/c of pride. I skipped a Sunday and then came back the following Sunday with my husband. It was during service that day that my life was forever changed. The Pastor, Stephen Joyce, preached from the book of Isaiah. That’s when I saw and heard something that penetrated my soul in a profound way.
Isaiah 59:1-2 (NIV), Surely the arm of the LORD is not too short to save, nor His ear too dull to hear. But your iniquities have separated you from your God; your sins have hidden His face from you, so that He will not hear.
I received the reality check of life that day! I was so sad b/c I had the game all twisted for so long and had no clue. All my life, I was told I was a Christian b/c I grew up in the church. I was fully aware of what sin was and knew when I committed it, but all I had to do was pray to God to forgive me each time and I was in the clear. I didn’t know my iniquities could literally hide my face from God. I didn’t want to pray another EMPTY PRAYER!! So I was saved before service ended that day.
I won’t assume everyone reading this post knows what being saved means. In order to be saved, you must REPENT of your sins, accept Christ as Lord of your life, believe He died on the cross to pay a debt He didn’t owe, and He rose from the grave on the 3rd day.
Yes, everyone sins…even the saved. We are born into a sin nature. It is a constant battle we must fight. But the point is, before getting saved and actively making changes in my life, I WASN’T FIGHTING. I was nice and COMFY-COZY in my sins and saw no reason to change b/c “I just prayed about it.” That is a lie straight from the enemy!
There are so many people who are where I was…convinced they are saved for all the wrong reasons. A characteristic of a saved person…one who is filled with Holy Spirit, is that you can’t HABITUALLY stay simmering in that sin; I mean that literally b/c it can become physically difficult to do the same things without a strong sense of guilt, hurt, or shame. You turn away from that sin and turn it over to God.
So here it is. Real Christians are FIGHTING (sin) b/c we are filled with Holy Spirit and sincerely want God’s will in our lives. We desire to please God over and beyond our own desires. I repeat… WE DESIRE TO PLEASE GOD OVER AND BEYOND OUR OWN DESIRES. And we are NEVER comfortable living in sin. This doesn’t mean you won’t ever fall into that sin again, but it means the Spirit on the inside of you makes it that much harder to do it again. If you are one of the many people out here who justify your sin in order not to have to give up something you desire, hear me when I say, you are playing a dangerous game of Russian Roulette with your soul.
After I got saved, my sins didn’t stop cold turkey. But, the things I used to feel no remorse about…the things I had no shame about…the way I used to dress…the way I used to talk… as I turned them over to God, read the Word for understanding, and prayed, these things started to take change in me. As transformation takes place on the inside, it should also reflect on the outside.
As I look forward to the future that is in store for me, I keep my eye on God for continued guidance. Christianity is not simply religion catered to called Pastors, Ministers, and Clergy; it is an assignment for regular everyday people b/c we are carrying His name in describing who we are. The bible delivers the truth about God and His desires for us, so that we can make informed decisions for our lives. If you don’t read it, you can’t know (for yourself) what He wants for you. Ask yourself, “Am I really saved?” Be honest with yourself and act accordingly. No more empty prayers people. No more self-justification. No more games. I am walking BOLD and FABULOUSLY for Christ. You can too because as 1John 4:4b (KJV) states, greater is He that is in you, than He that is in the world.
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