Let me start out by apologizing for not giving a formal introduction of myself the 1st time I posted last Wednesday. I was just so excited to get this beautiful process started that I dove right into the proverbial dessert before the main course. The short version: My name is iNDIGO. Professionally, I am currently a Gospel Singer, a Songwriter, Vocal Producer, Vocal Coach, and Owner of a Christian business. I dedicated my life to Christ in April 2006, leaving behind a very secular life. I hope someday to be able to share my testimony in it’s entirety, but for now, let’s just say it is extensive. Those of us who are born again all have a story. As Christians, we don’t all have the same history, struggles, and/or experiences, but each of us who has been brought out of darkness into the light have an obligation to tell the world, “IT WAS BECAUSE OF JESUS. LET ME SHARE HIM WITH YOU.”

I was so lost for so long y’all. But the sad part was that, when I was at the peak…the pinnacle of my anything goes, sinful ways, I truly believed that I was a Christian. I was famous for quoting Romans 3:23, as a defense to anyone attempting to throw religion in my face. “Everybody sins homie and God knows my heart, so beat it!”. I didn’t understand the truth of God’s word.

I thought that being a “good person” was enough to qualify me…enough to justify me. I was sure that was my golden ticket.  I had no true relationship with God. I only reached out to Him regarding things of interest to me or when there was some form of crisis. Then I would have the nerve to mock Him when the prayer wasn’t answered. Again, I didn’t understand the truth of God’s word.

My GodBrother who was in the secular music industry before finding the Lord in 2005, invited me to His church (About My Father’s Business Outreach Ministries in Washington, DC) back in March 2006. I went reluctantly and started to feel God tugging at me that day but I didn’t act on it b/c of pride. I skipped a Sunday and then came back the following Sunday with my husband. It was during service that day that my life was forever changed. The Pastor, Stephen Joyce, preached from the book of Isaiah. That’s when I saw and heard something that penetrated my soul in a profound way.

Isaiah 59:1-2 (NIV), Surely the arm of the LORD is not too short to save, nor His ear too dull to hear. But your iniquities have separated you from your God; your sins have hidden His face from you, so that He will not hear.

I received the reality check of life that day! I was so sad b/c I had the game all twisted for so long and had no clue. All my life, I was told I was a Christian b/c I grew up in the church. I was fully aware of what sin was and knew when I committed it, but all I had to do was pray to God to forgive me each time and I was in the clear. I didn’t know my iniquities could literally hide my face from God. I didn’t want to pray another EMPTY PRAYER!! So I was saved before service ended that day.

I won’t assume everyone reading this post knows what being saved means. In order to be saved, you must REPENT of your sins, accept Christ as Lord of your life, believe He died on the cross to pay a debt He didn’t owe, and He rose from the grave on the 3rd day.
Yes, everyone sins…even the saved. We are born into a sin nature. It is a constant battle we must fight. But the point is, before getting saved and actively making changes in my life, I WASN’T FIGHTING. I was nice and COMFY-COZY in my sins and saw no reason to change b/c “I just prayed about it.” That is a lie straight from the enemy!
There are so many people who are where I was…convinced they are saved for all the wrong reasons. A characteristic of a saved person…one who is filled with Holy Spirit, is that you can’t HABITUALLY stay simmering in that sin; I mean that literally b/c it can become physically difficult to do the same things without a strong sense of guilt, hurt, or shame. You turn away from that sin and turn it over to God.
So here it is. Real Christians are FIGHTING (sin) b/c we are filled with Holy Spirit and sincerely want God’s will in our lives. We desire to please God over and beyond our own desires. I repeat… WE DESIRE TO PLEASE GOD OVER AND BEYOND OUR OWN DESIRES. And we are NEVER comfortable living in sin. This doesn’t mean you won’t ever fall into that sin again, but it means the Spirit on the inside of you makes it that much harder to do it again. If you are one of the many people out here who justify your sin in order not to have to give up something you desire, hear me when I say, you are playing a dangerous game of Russian Roulette with your soul.
After I got saved, my sins didn’t stop cold turkey. But, the things I used to feel no remorse about…the things I had no shame about…the way I used to dress…the way I used to talk… as I turned them over to God, read the Word for understanding, and prayed, these things started to take change in me. As transformation takes place on the inside, it should also reflect on the outside.
As I look forward to the future that is in store for me, I keep my eye on God for continued guidance. Christianity is not simply religion catered to called Pastors, Ministers, and Clergy; it is an assignment for regular everyday people b/c we are carrying His name in describing who we are. The bible delivers the truth about God and His desires for us, so that we can make informed decisions for our lives. If you don’t read it, you can’t know (for yourself) what He wants for you. Ask yourself, “Am I really saved?” Be honest with yourself and act accordingly. No more empty prayers people. No more self-justification. No more games. I am walking BOLD and FABULOUSLY for Christ. You can too because as 1John 4:4b (KJV) states, greater is He that is in you, than He that is in the world.
*Wednesdays with iNDIGO*

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  1. Ify says:

    sis, can i just say that this is such a relevant word. i’m letting it penetrate as we speak. (some places i had to say “ouch”)

  2. Tristan Lewis says:

    weeping. i will never be the same after this. thank you jesus.

  3. Reg says:

    Good word, keep witnessing and being obedient in your walk!

  4. Vivian says:

    Your entry reminds me of Ephesians 2:1-10. To which I say, to God be the Glory for all things new in him!

  5. boldandfab says:

    Sis…I’m TRULY proud of you for ALLOWING God to TRANSFORM you!!! B/c like you said it DOESN’T happen OVERNGHT; HOWEVER, there should be SOME SIGHT of change shown OVERTIME!!! I loved the end…ARE YOU TRULY SAVED or as my mom says( not being JUDGEMENTAL HOWEVER BELIEVERS are CALLED by God to hold EACHOTHER ACCOUNTABLE) are YOU FAKING it?? Sis I LOVE your boldness for Christ…TODAY, ppl ESCPECIALLY those in LEADERSHIP roles need to TRULY check theselves in WITH GOD & have a SERIOUS talk about being LIVING examples b/c THE WORLD is watching & like you said in ur WONDERFUL blog ENOUGH with the EXCUSES for OUR actions & some ppl ACTUALLY make EXCUSES for others actions that are SOOOO CRYSTAL CLEAR for ppl to SEE/FEEL!!! ENOUGH is ENOUGH!!! We need to STOP EXCEPTING/OVERLOOKING LUKE WARM Christians…It doesn’t go BOTH ways either your FOR HIM OR AGAINST HIM!!! EVERYONE sins BUT it’s IMPOSSIBLE to STAY that way when your TRULY in TRANSFORMATION mode thru Christ!!! You can’t be saved for 10yrs + & still RESPOND/Have the SAME ways as if you NEVER BEGAN a JOURNEY!!! Oh, that’s JUST how that person is;-( ENOUGH!!! The End;-)


  6. Mrs.Hooker says:

    God…is amazing..It is sad that sometimes we have to loose everything for himbto have our attention ! Someone told me today that sometimes God has to close a door to protect u.. Just know he knows the bigger plan he has for u …just TRUST him ! I thank God for placing me here iin this time…Be Blessed.

  7. Marquita Joyce says:

    Praise God for your testimony and you using all your resources in getting the word out!!! Keep doing what you are doing and being bold and letting no one silence you!! Being a Christian isn’t easy especially in a world where Sin is looked upon by society as righteous and righteousness is looked at as close minded!!! It’s okay though cause in the end we win!!!HALLELUJAH!!!!….(as the angels cheer)

  8. LATOYA SHAW says:

    Forreal Jocelyn!!!!! I mean, Indigo…I didnt know most of the info that you posted about yourself. I am really proud of you and your mission for Christ! You made ur decision and arent gonna let anyone stop you….AMEN! Thanks for sharing and im looking forward to your next posting!! God Bless sis!

  9. "Mom Dukes" says:

    Sister iNDIGO, indeed I believe today I’ve read the testimony of a true believer with a “made up mind.” You must allow the Lord to change you on the inside first, or what people see on the outside is, well, fake… and being fake is tiring, to say the least… Continue to display the life of a sinner transformed by the Grace of her Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. And remember, SAVIOR is WHAT Jesus did for you; LORD is who He MUST be to you… Love you lots!!!

  10. Jett2054 says:

    It is always exciting and enlightening to experience an individual like yourself who has reached the pinnacle of their own spirituality. And, as a consequence, GOD has blessed you with the strengths of faith and understanding. I rejoice in your convictions and want you to know that you have touched me in a most positive way!

  11. iNDIGO says:

    Thank you Jett2054 for reading and allowing it to minister to you. Come back again.

  12. iNDIGO says:

    Thank you for saying that Mom Dukes. A sinner is all I will ever be, but a sinner with a transformed heart. I strive to get better daily. I want more of Him. I love Him so much.

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