Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Here I am sitting in planned parenthood and I hear my name called Monisha Lloyd….Monisha Lloyd. I get up & follow the nurse to my room. She begins to tell me my test came back “Positive”. I’m sixteen; however, I’ll be turning seventeen in six weeks so it can’t be that bad….RIGHT!?!?! I leave the building heading back to school QUICKLY so I will not miss my english class. The entire bus ride I LITERALLY saw MY LIFE GOOONE in my head. I walk back into the doors of my high school and I IMMEDIATELY see my current BFF/High School sweetheart. I walk up to him and hand him a paper that WILL change the REST of OUR lives. I tear up as I began to think about my ENTIRE basketball career GOONE…MY FUTURE GONE!!! I’m sixteen and pregnant. He stands there “STIFF” and I continue to class. Six months and two weeks later hiding my BABY BUMP was DIFFICULT. After playing in the championship game at PG community college(6 1/2 months Pregnant) I felt the need to confess to my parents that in less than three months I will be a mother. Here I am going into my last year of high school eight months pregnant. I felt so down on myself and I felt defeated. Psalms 25:4-7 “Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love. Remember not the sins of my youth and my rebellious ways; according to your love remember me, for you are good, O LORD. ”
You see I was VERY familiar with God and I knew enough to KNOW that God WILL show me His way WHEN I AM CONNECTED and I NEED NOT feel defeated. I began working when my son was three weeks old(I STILL had my stitches in) I was determined to graduate; however, my son needed to be financially taken care of. I would work evening and continue my education during the day. My life was SOOO hard in MY EYES. John 16:33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” I graduated ON TIME and my life TRULY BEGAN!!! Being ME at that time was THE WORST…However, God had ALREADY promised ME that He would NEVER LEAVE me NOR FORSAKE me!!! & I ALWAYS believed that. You see thru my struggles God ALREADY KNEW my FUTURE/PAST/ & PRESENT. God was just WAITING on ME to get in line with HIS WILL so He could SHOW ME. After, seven years of doing MY LIFE MY WAY I FINALLY saw the big picture. I TRULY…I SAID TRULY needed to FOLLOW Christ with ALL MY HEART in order for the life HE PROMISED me to come to LIGHT in this DARK world.
My sons father and I were APART(7 yrs) living TOTALLY different lives(of course he was VERY present in our sons life) and The minute I gave my life to Christ and SURRENDERED ALL, He reunited us and we got married. We CHOSE to live our lives pleasing God and God ALONE. Philippians 3:7 “but whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ. You see I gave up living IN THE WORLD and LOOK what God DID!!! YES…GOD and GOD ALONE DID IT!!!
Today, I ENCOURAGE you to LOOK at the bigger picture. Though life may seem tough/IMPOSSIBLE RIGHT NOW…THRU Christ and Christ ALONE YOU can/WILL overcome. KNOW YOUR OPPORTUNITY thru your trials….Don’t think your life is over because it didn’t go YOUR WAY the way YOU PLANNED it. Matthew 7:7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Don’t LET the door close on you while your DWELLING on your SORROW!!! NOOO…GET UP & KNOW YOUR OPPORTUNITY!!
Seek Christ I GUARANTEE you WILL NOT regret it. Today I look back on my life and reminisce on how I was sad/ANGRY with myself, I was disappointed with MYSELF BUT GOD ALREADY knew” THAT WAS MY OPPORTUNITY” and that TODAY I would THRU CHRIST in a BOLD & FAB way share what I THOUGHT was THE END…THRU CHRIST was the BEGINNING of a GREAT JOURNEY FILLED with JOY, PEACE, & MOST IMPORTANT ETERNITY with Christ. In God’s presence is fullness of joy; At His right hand are pleasures forever. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. And He said, “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.” The LORD is near to all who call upon Him, To all who call upon Him in truth. Today, get in your WORD so YOU can KNOW YOUR OPPORTUNITY when it ARRIVES because IT WILL in Jesus Name.
Monisha S. Carter