A heart felt apology to the Bold & Fab Readers:
Although it is now 12:24 a.m. and my post is now two days late, I suppose there is a testimony in almost everything…
After my last rant on being overworked and underpaid, I concluded that my work was not in vain, as God promises to reward those who diligently work for Him in excellence. Yea, this felt promising until this past week, where my words were certainly put to the test.
Not only, was my schedule CRAZY packed,, but I eventually lost control of life this week, and let the enemy get the best of me, falling into trap after trap after trap of temptation, then followed by guilt mixed with depression. Not a good look for someone “Bold and Fabulous” right?
By this Saturday, just one week after proclaiming Kingdom Business, I lost myself and all my responsibilities with it.
“Hey, uh, April, are you still coming to the meeting?” she asked as I lay in bed Saturday morning, jaded and dazed, not wanting to step foot outside in the real world. What happened?
Today is where I heard my Father speak to me…
“Everything you do, is not for Me”
If you are doing so much for others that you forget who is first, then perhaps you need to re-evaluate why you’re doing what you’re doing. This is precisely the question I had to answer today. And then it hit me, hard in the face, like a bag of bricks. I started to sink just like Peter, (Matthew 14:22-33) when I took my eyes off the prize, forgetting who the Alpha and Omega was, but instead placing people on the front page.
My prayer for this week:
God, save me from me. Help me to make You my number 1. Amen.