It was 4’oclock this morning. I was awakened by a strange sound. Turned on the light, got up, and saw there was vomit on the floor. My poor little dog…he was sick!! I was trying to figure out what he got into. I don’t feed him table food often, but perhaps it was that piece of chicken I gave him from my dinner that night. He was whimpering and begging for it as I was eating and I couldn’t resist…had to break him off.
Anyhow, after cleaning the mess, I held him in my arms to comfort him. Vomiting isn’t a pleasant experience for anyone; based on how out of it he looked, I felt compassion for the little guy. I put him in bed with us and dozed off. About an hour later, I was awakened by him trembling and making strange “crying” sounds. I continued to comfort him and later noticed he was staring out into thin air. He wasn’t responding to my voice and just seemed strange in general. I put him on the floor to see if he wanted to walk around and that’s when I peeped that he wasn’t walking. He would go to put one foot in front of the other and then lay down. I was like, uh oh…WHAT’S WRONG WITH MY SMOKEY?!
I took him outside for some fresh air. He continued to do the weird two-step-lay-down and repeat thing. Picked him back up and brought him back in the house. Made him drink some water and knew I’d have to take him to the Vet once they opened. But at this point it was about 5:30am. Got back in our room and put him on his bed. Dozed back off then my husband’s alarm clock went off. As he was taking a shower, Smokey threw up again and then went back into his blank stare. Needless to say, I was bewildered. I’ve only had my dog since October 2013 but it feels like he’s been with us for years. He was a nine year old mutt on death row at the shelter when I rescued him and he’s been a joy! He’s going on ten and hasn’t had any health issues! So, although I was concerned, dogs get sick sometimes…they vomit…it’s probably food poisoning…he’ll be okay. Just got to get him to the Vet soon.
As soon as they opened this morning, I was there. No appointment but just showed up like, “My baby is sick…please see him.” They did. I told them everything. They took blood and examined him. I waited patiently…tired, and in my mind I’m like, “just give him some anti-throw up juice so we can go home.” An hour or so later, the Vet called me in and told me something I wasn’t expecting. Smokey has a pretty intense heart murmur; at his age, it’s fairly common for that to turn into congestive heart failure, and everything he was experiencing was a seizure associated with that issue. My heart dropped. He told me Smokey has to get a scan done on his heart this week so that they can gauge the extent of the heart failure to determine the best option.
They told me to leave him there for overnight evaluation. Later they called to say he had perked back up, was active, and hungry, so I could take him home. Once he gets his scan (has to be done at another office because my Vet doesn’t have that equipment), he can tell me what medication would be best to manage his health and for the rest of his life, he will need to be on medication. I’m so glad my four-legged baby is ‘acting’ like his old self. Glad to have him home, but I can’t lie…I’m sad in the moment and blogging in that space today.
I know that everything will be okay. God never gives us more than we can bear and everything is a teachable moment…no matter how painful. As I’ve had time to process my day and all that has happened, I immediately thought about how often we judge a situation based on how things look on the outside.
–A couple weeks ago, a very popular Natural Hair & Women Empowerment blogger Karyn Washington of ‘For Brown Girls’, committed suicide. It took the Natural Hair community by storm. It was a shock to EVERYONE…her family, friends, & followers/fans. As she was Tweeting inspiring messages, smiling for countless Instagram photos, & blogging about loving yourself…she was personally in a world of pain on the inside that she felt unable to cope with anymore. That has to be such a lonely place to be in. Her heart was beautiful…wanting to encourage women, even through what she was going through inside that no one else knew.
-A lady almost died on her job because her supervisor would not allow her an ‘unofficial’ break to go grab a snack. The Supervisor thought she was being lazy…in fact, she is Diabetic and felt sick and needed to eat something. Thirty minutes later, she passed out and had to be resuscitated when the ambulance came. In the Supervisor’s words, “She didn’t look sick. I’m so sorry.”
-That lady at church who everyone knows is struggling financially and you make preconceived conclusions that she’s full of crap because “She has her nails done, so she ain’t struggling too much.” When in fact, the was treated to a manicure by someone who wanted to make her feel better about herself during a rough time.
Never judge a book by it’s cover. If you don’t have FULL KNOWLEDGE of a situation or have been informed by the source…you should only be speaking of it if it’s from a desire to pray on their behalf. Period. Everything else is assumption and gossip. So many people…so many circumstances and situations are NOT what they appear to be on the surface. Keep that in mind at all times.
That’s my word for the day. Love y’all. Be blessed.