TAKE IT BACK!!!

At age eleven, I took piano lessons. After about 8-months of taking the class, I told my mom I didn’t like it because I wasn’t learning as fast as the other kids in the class. So, she removed me from the class. At the age of 12, for two summers, I took an acting class at The Kennedy Center in DC. During my second summer there, I told my mom I didn’t like it because it was “stupid” and she was wasting her money because I wasn’t learning anything from it. So, she removed me from the class. At the age of 14, I joined the track team. I was lightening fast. I was able to go to Penn Relay where I qualified and brought home awards for the 4X100-meter relay and 200-meter race. After about two-years, I told my mom I didn’t like it anymore because my Asthma was acting up too much. So, she allowed me to quit the team.

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     There are so many instances I can name in my life where I began a bad habit of starting things that I did not finish. In my early years, I can trace my lack and slack to a lot of things I was going through mentally. My parents’ divorce caused an unstable home-life for me; which later lead to a lot of rebellion and confusion. I often didn’t feel adequate and compared myself, looks, progress, economic standing, etc. to my peers. So if I felt just a tad bit of pressure in an activity, I would simply walk away. Even into my 20’s & 30’s, I carried this same trait. As I get older, that ability to flee when something isn’t working (for whatever reason), stuck with me. It has been a defense mechanism for me…to keep me feeling safe

     blog1To be honest, I have just started dealing with this issue within myself over the past couple years. And last month, for the first time ever, I actually wrote out an “inventory” of the things I allowed fear, disillusion, anger, disappointment, and comparison, to keep from me. I had to really examine myself and seek out God on it because it was tough to really look at myself in the mirror for a while as I backtracked. Thinking about what I would be doing if I had kept doing this or that. Y’all, the enemy began playing tricks on my mind a bit and I found myself getting sad about it all. 

     Then it hit me, I can take back what the devil stole! As long as I have breath, it is never too late to be what I might have been. Listen, we can’t turn back the hands of time. We can only make the best of this time. So, I decided to start #OperationTakeItBack. 

I started a piano class a few weeks ago. 

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I purchased a keyboard so I can practice in between classes. Trust me, it’s not like riding a bike. lol. I don’t remember ANYTHING I learned decades ago. I’m at ground zero, but I’m committed to finishing what I started. I have no idea how long it’s going to take me to get to the point where I’m playing full songs by ear, playing for myself at gigs, etc. but I don’t care. I’m staying the course until GOD says otherwise. 

On this past Sunday, I auditioned for the understudy for the main role in a stage play and guess what?

I got the part!! 

The director was so impressed with my audition and table-read that she personally called me the next day to encourage me on my journey in acting. She truly made my day and most of all, it was validation. The things I learned so many years ago in my acting class, stuck with me. I have this thick script with so many parts to memorize, but I’m committed to finishing what I started.

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     I want to encourage you today to not be down on yourself about things you didn’t finish. You can’t change the past but with God’s blessing, you can alter your present. If you have a lingering passion for something that you let go of before, don’t allow embarrassment or thinking you’re too old or any of the lies the enemy tells you, keep you from going after it. Let the things you quit, serve as a push for you to never give up on yourself again. You can truly do all things through Christ who strengthens you. Take it back and GO FOR IT!!

*Wednesdays With INDIGO*

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10 Responses to TAKE IT BACK!!!

  1. Pastor Joel Simpkins, Sr. says:

    Awesome!!!

  2. kaismomesq says:

    Yup, we’re related! This hit home. Thank you. Xoxo

  3. howandwhen says:

    Love this. Love your blog. It is so uplifting.

  4. Lisa Renee' says:

    Ok Indi, This is so on time. I’ll inbox u and tell u why. Thanking God for your blog and for using you to show me, I’m not alone.

    Lisa

  5. J Rated says:

    Great read. I so needed this. Thank you for allowing God to use you as a vessel to encourage others. Woooow! I can so relate. I’m a firm believer in operating in the spirit of transparency and I love how you just “put it on the table”. This was something that I needed to read today as I am all of a sudden I’m feeling inspired as I aspire to do what God has called me to do and then some along with some other stuff! Bless you on this journey and I anticipate on hearing more about these things. You are awesome!!!

  6. Encouragement & confirmation received!

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