If you read my blog last Wednesday, you know that I was in prayer and decision mode about a super opportunity that had come my way. Well, I didn’t answer on the guy’s under-the-gun time table, but the offer was still there for me a few days later, so I said YES. Ethiopia… here I come!!
I realized that God gave me Holy Spirit on the inside to determine if it was an opportunity FROM HIM or not. The conviction (or lack there of) is all the answer I needed. I found myself coming up with all the reasons I should say NO and all of those reasons involved included doubt, fear, control issues, and other things NOT OF GOD!! All of the things I have going on this side of the globe, do not have to stop. Not only do they not have to stop, but they can actually thrive with me gone. I can teach my Youth Retreat class via Skype. I can stay in touch with everyone I will miss. I can read my word and pray just like I do at home. I can even go to church there because it is a Christian nation. God is in control.
During the time I was praying about it, I came across a song that ministered to me. You’re probably wondering which Gospel or Christian song I’m going to say, but uh… Nope! As weird as it sounds, it was the Katy Perry song, FIREWORK. I’ve heard that song what seems like a million times w/ it’s synth-vocals and catchy-pop-beat, but never truly listened to the words. On this day, I listened and heard…I mean, really HEARD the words. Reminded me a lot of my mind frame when I wrote my “MOXIE” blog series. But nonetheless, I would like to share the lyrics with you.
1st Verse: Do you ever feel like a plastic bag? Drifting throught the wind; wanting to start again. Do you ever feel…feel so paper thin; Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?
Do you ever feel already buried deep; six feet under…scream but no one seems to hear a thing?
Do you know that there’s still a chance for you? Cause there’s a spark in you
B-Section: You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine just own the night
Like the Fourth of July!
Hook: Cause baby you’re a firework! Come on show ’em what you’re worth
Make ’em go “Ah, ah, ah!” As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you’re a firework! Come on let your colors burst
Make ’em go “Oh, oh, oh!”
You’re gonna leave ’em fallin’ down-own-own
2nd Verse: You don’t have to feel like a waste of space.
You’re original, cannot be replaced.
If you only knew what the future holds; after a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you’re reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow and when it’s time, you’ll know
Bridge: Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It’s always been inside of you, you, you
And now it’s time to let it through
I bolded a section above because it reminded me of Proverbs 14:1 — “The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down.”
In making the decision about the Ethiopian Experience, I was seconds away from tearing down the proverbial house I have built as an artist… someone who is not only a Gospel singer, but also someone who has worked hard on her craft, been diligent, professional, and reliable for so many years. Someone acknowledged that enough to offer me a 3-month position overseas to use my voice and be paid nicely for it.
How often do we dim our own lights? How many times has God presented you with favor in an area but you don’t realize it as such and sabotaged your own blessing? How many times have you let fear keep you a prisoner and keep you from your ultimate destiny? Be BOLD by grabbing hold of FABULOUS opportunities. Not for the sake of money, but for the sake of seeing how far God truly intends to stretch you for His glory. God uses all things together for good to those who LOVE HIM (that means OBEY too folks!).
So choose to shine… let your colors burst… BE A KINGDOM FIREWORK and represent for Christ with all you do and every decision you make; no matter where you go or who is in your company… GOD BE GLORIFIED!!!!
*Wednesdays w/ iNDIGO*