Not very Christ-like, I know. What happened was (beside me letting my temper get the best of me) I got fed up. One of my “friends” started talking about me and my business on Facebook. And instead of doing what Christ would have wanted me to do which is turn the other cheek, forgive and forget, I joined in the Facebook battle and spoke against this fellow I used to call my brother. We went back and forth, each of us posting statuses about the other and passing some pretty violent words. Talking alot of junk and smack, whatever you wanna call it. It was all unnecessary and foolish. Especially for me, since I’m a Child of God.
All these verses about the tongue started rolling through my mind AFTER I had already let it loose. James 3:5,8 “So also the tongue is a small member, yet it boasts of great things. How great a forest is set ablaze by such a small fire!…but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.” Proverbs 18:21 “Death and life are in the power of the tongues and those who love it will eat of it’s fruit.” 1 Thessolonians 5:11 you know?? “Therefore ENOURAGE one another, build each other UP.”
Here’s a stinger: Proverbs 10:19 “When words are many, transgression is not lacking, but whoever restrains his lips is prudent.” In other words, if you talk too much, something not good is bound to happen.
Immediately after I spoke, I felt the sickening and sinking feel that a great big dose of guilt will give ya. *Sigh* And right then I knew what I had to do. I had to apologize to God for letting Him down, then apologize to AJ, the one I wronged.
So that’s where MY life’s been today. =/ But if THAT wasn’t enough, I threw out all the stops. I deleted him off of Facebook. O_O To alot of people, being deleted is like “OH. MY. GOSH. That’s forreal!” To me, it was like, “I really don’t need the negative attitude depressing down-ers in my newsfeed, inbox or my life.”
My Dad told me, Growing pains hurt. No matter the depth, the amount of pain, or how big the scar they leave, in the end, growing pains are there to help us something. And the marks are something we can look back on and remember how it felt to grow more mature. Something else he tells me, “You’ll be alright when the swellin goes down.” Lol and it’s true!
Because since I’ve confessed my sins and my wrongdoings, and since I’ve apologized, I feel better! Psalm 103:12 “So far as the East is from the West, so far does he remove our transgressions from us.” It feels wonderful to know that AS SOON AS anything happens and I admit my wrongfullness and repent, God forgives me. And no matter what man says or thinks or does, forgive me or not, I did my part. I don’t have to walk around burdened down by the guilt of not apologizing. I take this as another stepping stone. It’s something else I had to learn from, another one of those growing pains. And when I look back on it now (even though it’s been only but a hour or so) I am okay. And I’ll continue to work on controlling my temper, and my tongue..
To the KING!!