The last few days have been challenging for me. No one has known what I’ve been going through. I have kept my emotions under wraps. But each time I hit my room, I cry uncontrollably and hit my knees in utter awe of the God I serve. These tears have multiple reasons. Let me start at the beginning…
On Sunday, I visited an Orphanage here in Addis Ababa w/ my band mates. Getting in the van to head over there I thought I was prepared. I mean, I knew I was going to visit kids who had no homes b/c of their family’s economic condition; kids who were orphaned by AIDS; and so many other reasons. I had my armor on…ready for the sadness. “I will not break!” I said to myself. I was firm in my stance.

Walking in, I immediately looked at the tangible…what I was already expecting; ashy skin and dirty, tattered clothes and shoes. But then it hit me, I noticed there was no sadness at all. Seeing these beautiful smiling faces… most of which barely spoke English touched me. They came over to myself and the other band mates, took us by the hand, loved on and encouraged us. I was blind-sided by their joy. I came prepared for pitiful faces and crying, but instead these children gave me the opposite. Their zest for life was evident. I’m sure they are conditioned to keep in mind that every adult which walks in is a potential parent. So of course they are on their best behavior, but the sincere nature of their love could never be rehearsed.

One of the girls, Aleme (age 9) took me on a tour of the place. It’s actually set in a very old, beautiful Catholic church. She showed me the toddler area and the newborn room, where there were babies only a few days old. I found myself becoming overwhelmed…not w/ emotion, but with thoughts of HOW THE HECK CAN I HELP? WHAT THE HECK CAN I DO?? I even found myself thinking, “Perhaps I should consider adopting.” I mean, the adoption process overseas is SO MUCH EASIER, stress-free, and substantially cheaper than it is in the USA. I am still in prayer about this actually. But even with the thought of adoption, I still felt the same way…helpless.
So as we were preparing to leave, Aleme got teary eyed. I asked one of the English speaking girls what was wrong w/ her. She spoke back to them in their language and I was then told that Aleme wanted to come home to America with me. That was it. The tears started to fall down my face uncontrollably. I gave her a huge hug and got her address and promised to come back and see her often since I’m here until May and I will write her when I get back home.
Since that day, I have been interceeding for orphaned children all over the world, as well as praying for those children I met on Sunday. God told me that there is no reason that I should not adopt a child but to not allow emotions to take me into a life altering decision b/c at the end of the day, a child’s life and well-being is at stake. He also spoke to me that there is much more I can do to help.
So after returning from a birthday brunch today, I continued praying and got an answer so clear it was surreal. I will say it was definitely a breakthrough on many levels but most certainly in my prayer life. I have no doubts that God hears my pleas and knows my heart. He is sculpting it like a piece of clay and I can feel it getting wider and more FABULOUS w/ each touch of His hand. So yet again, God has laid a new thing within me for HIM to be glorified. I am excited for the next BOLD chapter of my life with this assignment being birthed in me. I welcome it and ask for all of your prayers along the way. I will reveal it in due time.
*Wednesdays w/ iNDIGO*

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12 Responses to FOREVER CHANGED!

  1. Jenny Lu says:

    Wow, I am in tears reading this…Sis, you have my prayers and support in whatever you are called to do. Seeing God work through you is keeping me in awe! 🙂 Whatever He’s called you to do, you are more than equipped to handle it!

    • Indigo says:

      I appreciate you sis. I was in tears typing it, lol. Thank you for your words of encouragement. These kids are “overcomers” fa sho!! Praise God. BTW, I am super stoked about your book. Only a few more days ’til release!!!! Hallelujah.

  2. Mr Jones says:

    I am praying with you like Jenny I too am fighting back the tears. I thought to myself as a father I wish I could be a father to all of those who are without one but then God whispered to me “I AM”, meaning he is the Father to the fatherless. The best I can do at this point is pray for them! Thank you for sharing Sis!

    • Indigo says:

      God IS!!! You’re so right E. For me, I had been struggling with the reality of KNOWING that while still KNOWING there is something I can do. We in the states are so privileged. We have NO IDEA how much we have. The poor of the USA is rich in these standards. So, actually forcing myself to DO SOMETHING while still praying was the challenge. I don’t have all the answers…not even most, but I will start with the task He has given and follow it through to completion. Thanx for reading.

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  4. Alyssa says:

    Wow that really deep Indigo. I’m glad to hear you was able to experience the unexpected on your trip. It makes me wish I was there with you LOL. I can’t wait to hear what God has revealed to you. Until then God bless :D.

    • Indigo says:

      The unexpected is a perfect assessment. Not only did I have no clue I would be impacted in such a way, but I had no clue I was even going to visit an orphanage. That was not in MY plan during this trip. I knew I was here to work and enjoy myself in the process, and that was it. Who knew? God did. I praise His holy name!! Thank you for taking the time to read and comment today. Please spread the word about The Bold & The Fabulous blogsite. Blessings each day of the week.

  5. boldandfab says:

    What a life changing experience you had! I’m in complete awe just reading your post so I can only imagine the feeling you had being there. Awesome blog sis! – Bianca

    • Indigo says:

      Thanx sis. Life changing indeed…in more ways than I ever coulda imagined. And daily being impacted in different ways. Thanx for your continued love & support.

  6. boldandfab says:

    : ) : )
    Wish I could be there.
    I can certainly relate with your overwhelming emotional experience….
    Just remember God has you there for a reason…

    • Indigo says:

      No doubt ACC. We definitely need to chop it up when I get back. You may get to come w/ me next time. Yes, I am coming back!!! lol

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